I have a problem with how I learned to masturbate. My parents intended the best for me, I really believe that, but I grew up in a very sexually repressed household where masturbation was considered to be a sin.
My younger brothers (adopted, much younger) - my parents weren't as sexually repressive with them, they started to see that the philosophy taught by groups like Focus on the Family was not in the psychological best interest of the children.
But being taught that masturbation was sin, not being allowed to have my door closed except at night or when I needed to change my clothes, etc. resulted in a very awkward method of masturbation. With my clothes on I dry hump the mattress. That way if someone walked in on me I could pretend I was asleep and being fully clothed, they wouldn't suspect what I was doing.
When masturbating via stroking, it is much harder for me to obtain a release but when I do, it is a much much more wonderful release, it really is.
I don't know how many strokes it takes, I'm trying to teach myself to masturbate "normally" and edging is easy, but actual release not so easy. In fact when I get release that way, it's usually because I'm on the phone with a Mistress and even then, it isn't common and usually involves a Mistress giving me head over the phone. Not always though, sometimes it is just stroking over the phone. Marilyn could get me to release just by stroking (I miss her deeply).
I don't think I could count while trying the stroking technique. I want to get to the point where I can.
Alice Wonder, thank you for sharing. SO MANY grew up this way, thinking masturbation was something other than NORMAL and NATURAL...that it was shameful, sinful, dirty, or wrong. It is hard to overcome that kind of programming. But keep working on it!
There is NOTHING wrong or sinful with masturbation!